Health Tip of The Day

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Day 16- Good Results and Thoughts on Being Human

This week was a little more difficult in some ways staying on track. For my readers who aren't in the US, it was Thanksgiving, which is a holiday here that includes an incredible feast with family much like Christmas. So, having Turkey and mash potatoes is never great but having a lot of leftovers can be even worse on a diet. I wanted to do two workouts a day to help and try to keep my portions down. Well, I did pretty good with my portions on all the other days, except the actual Thanksgiving dinner. I did allow myself to have a little more but not a lot and no seconds. I even made myself workout before I had my pie. As my other posts this week have pointed at, I did not get two workouts a day in and I had to take two days off. My muscles are sore and heavy which makes working out hard. But I know the more I push myself the better I get. The stronger I feel. my punches are stronger, more precise and my kicks are stronger. I know this workout is kickboxing and not self defense but I know these moves could be used for that.It makes me feel like maybe I could defend myself if I needed to. After all I don't want to ever be put in the positions I have been. I think if only I had known this or that move. If only I had known my ex-husband was cheating on me. If only I had known about, certain things; maybe it would have been different but you know we can't go back and change the past. All we can do is live in the present and plan for the future. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. My ex may get wind of my online presence and come after me, heaven forbid. But if he does I hope all the work I am doing now, will prepare me. Saying that I guess I am still scared, but who wouldn't be? He told me that when I least expected it, he would be there. So, I try to stay vigilant about the safety of myself and my family. I know what he is capable of, even if my husband now says my ex won't do anything because he is here. I know it has been many years but you never forget when you are hurt like this. I have learned to forgive. Some may say how can you? Some things are just unforgivable but you know unforgiveness only breeds bitterness and anger. I don't want to be bitter. I have lived with bitter people before and it is much nicer for you and the people around you if you are not a bitter person. I hear my friends at church say to forgive and forget. My answer is "I am not God. I am human and in my mind it is like it was yesterday. If I forget, then it leaves me open to letting it happen again." You never know what will happen, good or bad. Being prepared for anything is your best option.

Took more measurement tonight.

Chest   43.25"     new 44"            R. Arm  15"          new  14"         R. Leg  25.25"     new 24.25"
Waist   53"          new  51"            L. Arm  15.5"       new   14.5"      L  Leg  25.5"       new 25"
 Hips   56"          new 55.25"

So, you can see I lost 5.5 more inches. That brings my total up to 15". Woohoo! Got tons more to go. I really do need to go to my doctor and get weighed this week. So excited but even if the scale doesn't say what I want I know my body is changing.

Hopefully, if there is anything that you as my reader can take away from this is you can't control anyone but you. Be kind to yourself; sometimes life doesn't go as planned. Deal with it and move on. If I had done what I have done before, I would have told myself how stupid I was for not doing what I had planned  and that I couldn't do it because I had no willpower. It is just too hard. What good did that ever do me? I ended up fatter every time. I  ended up unhappy and even more unhealthy. The other thing is I was proving my ex and my Dad right whenever I let myself fail. I don't want them to have that kind of power over me. I want to have power over myself. It truly is mind over matter. Having the will to succeed doesn't happen over night. This thinking took work. I started changing my thinking not with this blog, although blogging does change it in some ways, but this has taken me since I think March of this year. It wasn't over night. It took telling myself these things over and over till I believed them. Now I don't remember the last time I call myself names like stupid or fat. I have blonde moments don't get me wrong. They are just mistakes. I know that doesn't make me stupid. It makes me human.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Day 14- Pushing myself and Being brave

Yesterday was a great day. Thanksgiving usually is. I got up early to cook most the day. I enlisted my daughter's and husband's help this year with the cooking. It was busy anyway. We ate our feast and I asked everyone what they were thankful for and everyone grumbled "Why does she always do this?" But it was good. We all are very thankful to have the roof over our heads and a table with chairs to eat at. Seems silly if you don't know, my family and I were homeless for about 7 weeks this summer. It was a very poorly planned out move to another state. Not like my husband didn't have a job. And then when we did got in here, we didn't have chairs because our chairs didn't fit in our moving van. So, needless to say we all had much to be thankful for. I had set up some goals for me to get through Thanksgiving without loosing weight. I made sure I had the cranberries, so I got in some fruit. I tried to have more turkey and not as much potatoes and stuffing. And most of all I was going to two workouts before I had pie. No matter what happened I told myself I would not beat myself up if I didn't do some of these things. Well, I met most of my goals. I didn't do two workouts, but I did do an hour worth of Turbo Cardio Party. I didn't want to; not sure why but my muscles just didn't want to move. I hadn't over eaten. I had to push myself to get through the video. But by the end I was happy I had and then I did allow myself a piece of pie. We all will have days like that when we just don't want to exercise, we may not want to but we need to. What we will find in pushing ourselves is that one we can do it and two pride in the accomplishment. 

Today, was also a very good day. I did the Turbo Jam 20 minute video. I know I needed to workout. It would have all been to easy with the holiday season to just not do it. I still don't do all the moves right but I am getting better. The more you do it the easier the moves get. My form isn't great but I know with time it will get better. My son even pretended to work out with me. He was really cute with his weighted gloves on and everything.

One thing about having my situation. the domestic violence that was proceeded by years of stalking is the isolation. I have spent years not trusting people, hiding myself away for fear of my ex-husband finding me and my daughter. This meant things like moving a lot, changing our names, never taking the same way home because I could and have been followed.  It also has meant no contracts on my cell phone because he found me once through that. I have had to be very protective of my privacy. Going online meant no pictures online and never putting my real city where I lived. Slowly through talking to others I have learned to trust. I met my husband on the internet while I was gaming. It wasn't like I was looking. It just happened and even then I waited six months to give him my phone number. It was the best thing that I ever did. We have now been married three and a half years and have a beautiful son together. Only through his love have I learned to trust others and start to love myself. Without him, I probably wouldn't have started this journey. I would have continued thinking I was doing the best I could under these conditions. It has been through the internet that I have gone to school and finished my education this past year and through the internet that I met my coach. These things have been life changers for me. The internet has allowed me to come out of my shell. So, it was highly appropriate that the final act of self confidence, the very act of being out there and releasing myself from my ex's hold was on the internet. I accomplished this today, 11 years, 2 months, and 3 days after that night that changed everything. The night I told you about in my first post. Today, I took that final act of bravery and posted my picture. It was scary. I did cry and within moments I was met with such wonderful comments from my family and friends that I am so glad I finally did it. Everyone commented on how beautiful I was inside and out. Before I would have argued with them but today looking at myself on Facebook I saw the beautiful woman I had become. I saw how happy I am in my eyes and knew that they were right. I may not be as skinny as I want to be, but beauty isn't about that.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Day 12- A lesson in Strength

Today was very busy. Work seemed to be never ending and getting house work done was almost impossible. Seems like when my teenage daughter is home from school, my four year old goes wild and it makes it harder to work. I didn't get my workout done until midnight. I really didn't want to workout at all today. But I pushed myself to get up and do the 20 minute workout even though I was supposed to do Cardio Party per the schedule that comes with the system. I was so happy I did that by the time the 20 minute video ended I was still raring to go and started the Ab Jam video or disc. lol I seem so old sometimes. Will I ever get used to new terms and technology? Speaking of feeling old, just the other day on twitter one of my friends asked if anyone remembered wearing leg warmers. Ah, that brought back some memories. I remember wearing legwarmers and headbands. I thought I was cool. My daughter would die. Of course this led to a conversation of old exercise gurus like Jane Fonda and Richard Simmons. I was in really good shape then. I wasn't really fat then. I was a little chubby. I did Jane Fonda during the summer that year and came back to school with a flat stomach but still felt fat. I remember wearing baggy clothes and one day when I dressed down for PE with my best friend she was surprised. She thought I was still overweight. I was so proud of myself. My reasoning for doing it then though was screwed up. I wanted one of my brother's friends, Marc, to notice me. It didn't work. He was at least three years older than me. When your in junior high, three years is a big difference. But I was young and thought that it didn't matter then. The things we learn as we grow is amazing. Now I know I have to finish this battle of the bulge for me. I have to want to live for my family, for my kids, but most of all for me. I don't want to go back to being that fat and I don't want to stay here. I know it will take more time. And more hard work.
There is no easy way to lose weight; no secret to fight the battle of the bulge. As wonderful as it would be if there was a magic pill or surgery, I totally believe now that only going through the hard stuff, all the emotions of why and the discipline of learning how to push through the tough things, is the only way to undo what got me here in the first place. It isn't about just losing the weight. It is about learning to have good self talk and stopping the old tapes that play in my head. Every horrible thing said to me about my weight. All the names I was called and I am fatter now. Wow, I hadn't thought about that. I am not going to cry. That boy in high school isn't here now who called me a cow and would say moo as I passed as he would shove me into the locker. I had my locker moved and still he managed to do it on the bus everyday until we moved to another house. I am going to lose this weight for me and feel good about myself when my 20th reunion comes up.   That is what my journey is about learning to focus on me, feeling better about me, and being healthy. As hard as it is to remember these things, I need to feel my emotions and know that it is ok. I didn't then. Back then I went home, I might have complain about what a jerk he was, and had a coke and some chips. Or gone to work and has some fries and a chocolate milk shake (I worked at Burger King then). I would drowned my emotions in food. And yes, I am embarrassed to admit this but at one point I even turned to bulimia, thinking it would solve my weight problem. That lasted a couple years but in the end I liked binging to much. I went to OA for a while and there was a support group for kids with eating disorders at school, that seemed to help for awhile. But I know when my first fiance broke up with me, the first place I went was to Burger King  to transfer stores since he worked with me and get my chocolate milk shake. Why because it hurt way to much to talk about it. I loved Steve so much and it hurt more than I could imagine.

But today, I am proud of myself I pushed through myself wanting to quit. That is what matters now. I  have perseverance and disciple more than I ever have before. Now bring on Thanksgiving tomorrow. I know it will be a hard day with a lot of food around and lots to do. And as scary as that is I say "Bring it on". Why because nothing can be as hard as fighting for my life with domestic violence. Nothing can be as hard as being homeless. I have so much to be thankful for. I have 2 beautiful children, a wonderful husband who loves me, cherishes me fat or thin and I am proud of myself. I don't need the approval of my dad or my mother or any of my family. I am strong and I can get through Thanksgiving and the rest of my journey into wellness despite all that has happened to me. My name is no mistake. Gabrielle  means strong, warrior because of the angel, Gabriel.Oh, that I may live up to my name.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Day 10- Results

I meant to post yesterday. I really have been trying to sleep more.  I know it is late now. I have been asleep on the couch for at least four hours, but I really had to let you know that I measured yesterday. I am really excited to let  you know what my results are. I measured a week ago and then yesterday. So these are 6 day results.

Chest   44"     new 43.25"            R. Arm  16.75"      new 15"          R. Leg 27.75"    new 25.25"
Waist  53.5"   new  53"                L. Arm   16"          new 15.5"        L  Leg  28"        new 25.5"
 Hips  56.5"    new 56"


Woohoo! That's 9 inches lost in 6 days! Most of it a whole 5" came off my thighs. I can't wait to see my results next week.

I know that this week is Thanksgiving but I am determined to keep up my exercise and I want to try to kick it up a notch to make up in case I do want to indulge a little. So, yesterday I did Cardio Party which is a 50 minute workout and then today I did 20 minute workout and Ab Jam, both of which are 20minutes a piece. I am feeling my abs so much tonight, but I know this is all worth it now. I see the benefit of Turbo Jam in these results. I can't tell people enough measure because even when you don't have a scale or the scale won't budge you can always see how many inches you have lost. The other thing is using the tools that your plan has for you. This is why I love Beachbody; one of the tools they have for us is a coach. What an invaluable tool this is. Being able to talk with someone else who has gone through this or is still going through it is the coolest thing. I know I can shoot a message to my coach  and ask her a question about my workout or my diet at anytime. This is how you prevent injuries and keep people motivated. This is the person who will let you know it is ok to modify the workout or your diet based on you. Say your knees are hurting, they can ask if you are doing the workout on carpet and tell you that you need to switch to a hard surface. Or help you revamp your diet to better suit your likes and dislikes.
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Sunday, November 21, 2010

Day 8

I meant to post yesterday but I must have worked out hard. I did two different Turbo Jams: Booty Sculpt + Abs and Cardio Party.  I ended up falling asleep on the couch at like 9 or 10 O'clock. Maybe  I should be working out more if it will help with my sleep so well. I only did one workout today and it was the Turbo Jam 20 minute. So far I think that is my favorite. Not because it is only 20 minutes but because it gets you so pumped up. I know I am starting to lose more weight. Unfortunately, I do not own a scale. So, I will have to go to my doctor and get weighed. This works for me because it forces me to see my doctor; something I need to do with my health condition.
I have told you guys and girls about my heel spur. What I haven't told you is that I have had foot problems for awhile. I have had flat feet forever. But with working out this year, I lost the flexibility of my right foot. It was painful to do certain moves at the gym. The doctor found the heel spur because I tore my fascia; so it has been incredibly hard to walk some days. But I have pushed through to find what I can do. Last night I noticed I could bend my foot. I was amazed. I am not sure how but I have my flexibility back. I woke up with my usually back pain and heel pain. So, I stretched as I often do in the morning before I get out of bed when I am in pain. I got up expecting to not be able to walk well and having to limp. To my surprise, I didn't have that much pain and I was walking fine. This was like this most of the day. Maybe getting enough sleep helps that too. Who knows but I think I may have to try to duplicate yesterday, with the two workouts and getting enough rest and see how this helps.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Day 6

Today was an even busier day. It has come to my attention that I need to not just attempt a to-do list on my phone but actually write it down with an actual schedule and stick to it. My time management is out of control. I can't believe a SAHM even needs to do this but when you run your own business things get crazy at time. I have never been good at this. But my house house isn't staying very clean and my things aren't getting done. I did my workout tonight at like 9:30 pm. I am so glad I did even though about the only thing that is constant in my life and always has been is "my time". You know the time when the kids go to bed and you get to sit and just relax. I broke that rule today to workout. It was worth it but I would prefer not to let "my time" of relaxing go by the wayside every night. As a mom, I totally believe every mom needs that. I have long since given up the bath with a good book and replaced it with the computer and games, which I like but I also miss that long, hot bath with a good book. I may have to find time for both. This may mean going to bed at a sensible time. That is going to be hard with my husband of 49, who thinks a sensible time is like 3 or 4 am. That is all well and good for him he usually goes to work at like 2pm; but I get up at like 8 am. So, I never get enough sleep. Just in time to see my 13 year old off to school and greet the little girl I babysit a few days a week. I work on my business and receive phone calls from various people. And if one of my friends should happen to have an emergency who helps them out but me; which is what happened the last couple of days. If your the type of friend who will drop everything at the drop of a hat, things suffer if you don't have a list reminding you of what you need to do. I am a great friend. No one can fault me for that or say I am a bad friend. lol I am just bad at time management. I always have been. My brother used to joke when we were kids that I held the door open for everyone when God gave out brains and I fell asleep. I know he was just trying to get me mad but it has been true to an extent about me being to nice. So, dedicating myself to losing weight has been good for me. It has instilled some discipline because I don't want to be this size anymore. I now I see that with a little hard work and making sure I stick to my exercise everyday I can accomplish anything.

My workout today was back to Turbo Jam. This time it was Punch, Kick, and Jam. It was hard. My DVD screwed up, which in the past would have been an excuse to quit for the day. But I pushed myself to wait for the DVD to keep going and it did and I finished the 50 minutes. I am starting to do the kicks better. My thighs sweated more than they ever have in my life. I sweated right through my pants! It was great. My skinny workout pants are now loose and I feel it in my abs more every time I do it. I can't wait for tomorrow and to workout again. I know after a week that the more I do this it will work. Having accountability and motivation with my coach and determination is all I need to keep this up right to the end.

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Thursday, November 18, 2010

Day 5

Today was a busy day. I was tired most of the day, but I have worked hard all week. I did do Shimmy today. I like it. It makes me feel feminine and young. Like I said yesterday, Shimmy is a bellydance workout on FitTV. I have DVRed most of the episodes now. Although, I am still working on like episode 12 or 13 out of 25 I think. Anyway, I did this for 16 minutes as I couldn't take anymore. My heel spur just couldn't take it today. That is ok. I am just proud of myself for doing 16 minutes. You should never push yourself if it hurts. Now I don't mean soreness; actual pain is what I mean. One thing I have learned is pushing yourself to hard can end in injury. Another thing I have learned is never be to hard on yourself. If you can't work at the high intensity of the workout or you mess up your diet, the worse thing you can do is beat yourself up. What happens when you do that? I know with me, when I beat myself up it just leads to overeating. Which usually leads to more overeating because I tell myself one of two things. One that I will get back on track tomorrow, which maybe the biggest lie ever. Or I get depressed and end up not working out or watching my diet, until the next time I start thinking "ok it is time to really do this".
I know you can probably see, due to the time stamp, it is late. I know I should be in bed, especially since I have been tired all day. In my defense, I fell asleep on the couch at like 10pm and woke at 1 or 1:30am. So, I will go to bed soon. Sleep is very important when trying to lose weight. Our muscles need it to repair themselves. I know from all my biology classes from school that when we sleep our cells repair themselves. And I am guessing with my craving today for protein, the building block of muscles, that mine are craving to repair themselves, which is even more of a reason to get more sleep. I just have never been good at sleep, except maybe napping when I was a kid. As I was growing up, it was one of the few times my father would leave me alone. But at night for some reason, maybe it was his drinking he would wake me up either with yelling, playing music loudly with some other musicians, or just to finish my chores or practice my piano or something. I know sounds lovely. But that is just how it was. But it led to my insomnia issues and my neurologist thinks it led to my sleep apnea which is made worse by my weight. One of the best things about losing weight has been getting off all my meds, except the blood thinner of course, but I am still on the sleep apnea machine. I do think at some point I will feel like I can live without it, though. On that note I will sign off and go to bed. Please leave a note or comment with encouragement or just to let me know you came by. I really would like to hear from you guys and girls reading this.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Day 4

Today, I tried the weighted gloves that come with the Turbo Jam videos.This is the second time I have done the 20 minute workout. It was easier today even with the weight gloves.  I am loving this! Someone on my Facebook page said I have Turbo Fever and you know what I do. When I got done my obliques hurt. I am pretty sure this was due to the gloves. I am so ready for the rest day tomorrow that the schedule calls for. I will probably do some other form of exercise that is a little less strenuous though. That way I am still doing some cardio. If you don't yet know, rest days are a good way to let your muscles recovery. It is like when you go to bed and rejuvenate. But you can exercise, it is just a matter of letting the muscle that you worked have a rest so my arms hurt from all the punches so I will do something that is easy on my arms and obliques. I will probably do Shimmy. It is a belly dancing workout that I have been doing for the last month from FitTV. It is awesome too. Low impact, barefoot which is great for my heel spur. And it focuses on my thighs, hips and belly. I will write more about that tomorrow as it is late and I am tired. One thing I need to work on is getting enough sleep.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Day 3

My daughter says my legs look smaller! Whoo hoo. She was watching me workout tonight in between talking to her teen friends on Facebook when she noticed. I am so excited. During losing my first 40 lbs I was kind of disappointed because I mostly lost weight across my chest and upper arms. There is a reason for that I know.
 

Number 1 when doing cardio you tend to loose fat around your heart first. This is usually most disappointing for women for a number of reasons. Our chest is so much part of us. Either we are big and we like that because we think that is what men like so loosing our D or bigger cups is devastating. like in my case. Or I see many women get upset because they were Cs or B cups and are worried that they will be As or flat chested. It is like somehow our woman hood is related to our boobs. We tend to have this idea that men or our husband won't like us if we aren't that perfect size. Or if as we get older or nurse our kids and our boobs start to droop that somehow along with loosing their perkiness we lose some sense of our sensuality or sexiness. But men like them in all shapes and sizes. No boob is the same anyway. Most aren't symmetrical but all they are is fat and mammary glands anyway. But yes they are what they are sex objects and food supplies for our babies. They are sensual, but I don't think that by losing some of the size that some how it makes them any less beautiful or they lose sensation.

Number 2 my arms lost weight and gained muscle because I was lifting weights. I was living at an apartment complex at the time that had a weight room and I took full advantage. Lifting weights makes you burn calories longer than with cardio alone. And women lifting heavy won't necessarily mean that you will gain large muscles. Sure we don't want to lift 300 lbs like men can sometimes. But lateral pull downs at 70 lbs or 80 if you can do it. Go for it. I was doing 70 when I moved a couple of months ago and I don't have huge muscles. But I am strong, which surprises many. I can lift my 45 lb son with no effort. In fact, he is now my bicep buddy. I do bicep curls with him. He loves it. Kids will do what is modeled to them. My teenage daughter isn't into working out ever. I didn't workout when she was younger. I was to depressed. But my 4 yr old son, will workout with me when he isn't running circles around me as I workout or stealing my water.

Being strong to me is important. I felt so weak for so long; still do most of the time. Those moments I feel strong I cherish. I don't want to feel weak anymore. I have felt like a child for so long. I am 36 now and still no matter what I do, say or act; I feel like a child. But when I workout, it makes me feel like a grown up. It makes me feel like I can take on the world the smaller I get and the stronger my muscles are.  Like no matter what anybody, any man does to me maybe I could defend myself. I have let myself feel inferior to others. I got good grades in school because my father demanded it of me or there were consequences. I continued after my parents got divorced because it was something I could control. I didn't have to talk to people when I studied. I did enjoy learning because I felt smart the more I learned but when I would talk to others I still felt like they were smarter than me somehow. I know now it was all those tapes playing in my head that made me think that. Thinking that boys didn't like smart girls. And things like no man would like me with my thighs. Ugh Why did I listen to the men who said that?

My coach read day 1 and said she was so proud of me because I had made so much progress since she met me several months ago. She is right I have. I have not only taken step 1 in a lifestyle change, which is identifying what was my triggers to getting fat but I think and I maybe wrong that step 2 is learning to stop those tapes from playing in your head. They may play from time to time but learning to identify the bad self talk and finding strategies to get beyond the lies we have told ourselves all these years is huge.

Ok time to stop my psycho babbling for now and get to reality of where I am. Reality check:

Chest   44"                R. Arm  16.75"       R. Leg 27.75"
Waist  53.5"              L. Arm   16"           L  Leg  28"
 Hips  56.5"

Weight 301

I can't remember where I put my measurements from 6 months ago when I started losing weight; but I can remember I weighed 337 after I had been working out a week or so and my chest was 48". So, I know I have lost about 40lbs maybe more and at least 4" maybe more.
Seeing these measurements does upset me. In high school, I may have been 178 but I remember in jr high I probably weighed 156 and I measured my waist and it was 27". Now my thigh is that size. So not pretty.
Well, this is where I am now; I will just have to workout and lose it.

On a good note, Turbo Jam was awesome today. I worked out for 45 min. doing Cardio Party. The kicks are still hard for me to get the timing right. But as you already know I was a dancer not a kickboxer. I will get it;it just takes practice. The rest was really good. Even with my heel spur I could modify the moves so I could make it low impact when I needed. I drank 64 oz of water during the DVD and sweated for a good hour after. Was sore in my obliques and front abdominals for a bit but it has since subsided.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Day 2

I am going to try to tell you about my transformation everyday for now. I just finished my 2nd Turbo Jam. I'm not great at all the moves yet but I love it. I drank 64 oz of water between start and the first 15 minutes of recovery that tells you it makes you sweat A LOT!  It is so worth it. I know from losing the last 40lbs the more you sweat the more you will lose. One tip tho if you have long hair a pony tail isn't going to be good enough for this workout. You need your hair to be way up to avoid the dripping sweat. Seriously. I really do love this and being on teambeachbody.com and being able to chat after you workout is awesome. It brings the best things of having worked out at the gym with friends with you without having to actually drive to the gym. If you aren't a member there, get a coach and go. It is awesome. I can be your coach and motivate you for free. http://beachbodycoach.com/GabbyWells Just click join. Try it for free have a look around. It will keep you accountable. And having someone that you can message anytime for support, like myself, makes all the difference.

Getting to Know Me

I am just your average woman, nothing special. I am 36 years old, married with two kids. I am a stay at home mom. I am overweight, but I am working on it. I have had several health problems not unlike other overweight individuals. I have sleep apnea and diabetes. I have had high triglycerides and high blood pressure. My biggest health issue is totally unrelated to my weight though. I have a rare blood disorder called antiphospholipid antigen disorder. Basically this means I have to take coumadin, which is a blood thinner,  for the rest of my life.
I took high blood pressure meds and cholesterol meds for a while. And when I wanted to get pregnant a few years ago my doctor took me off the cholesterol meds and exchanged them for fish oil. That worked to get my triglycerides down but I never was able to get pregnant. Since then I am also off my diabetes and high blood pressure meds.
In the past six months, I have managed to lose close to 40 lbs. due to portion control and working out. So, now I weigh 301. I know that is a lot. We all have to start somewhere though. I am totally committed to losing the rest. I feel so much better than I did and I am so excited to see the end of this journey and get on to the next part of my life. It seems like this weight has been a part of me forever. I have always been a little big but never this big. My mom does have picture of me at 4 or 5 that I was normal but I had hormone issues at about age 6 and have been chubby ever since. I started dancing at the age of  6 or 7. I loved ballet and tap. I continued to take dance classes into high school and even started college as a dance major. I wanted to be a choreographer for contemporary christian music videos. I had talent. It was my passion. I got really good grades in school. When I graduated high school, I weighed 178 with 142 lbs worth of muscle. I wasn't skinny but my muscle wasn't defined as I would have like it either. I am 5'3" so I was never happy with the 178. I injured my knee senior year. It was a torn cartilage. My doctor wanted to do surgery but insurance said I had to do physical therapy. So I did and then I went to college. This was hard on my knee. I danced nearly  5 hours a day. I know I must have damaged it more. I had lost weight but I don't know how much. But I didn't have enough money to stay at that college. So, I came home to figure out what I was going to do. Very few colleges have dance as a major. Just before I was to register for classes at the community college I got in a car wreck. I injured my back and was laid up for awhile. Unfortunately, this meant I lost my insurance because it was from my mom and I had to go to school to continue to be on it. I gained weight. I did eventually go back to school but I was floundering. Not knowing what I wanted to do. I was working at Burger King which I had since I was 15. I decided to move and find "the love of my life", an old boyfriend. I was finally excited about something. But that didn't work out and I was wooed off  my feet by a good looking, smooth talking man. It was to good to be true. Should have been a big red flag. We were moving to fast. 4 months latter I found myself married. The man who treated me like a queen, never wanting to be away from me suddenly turned into a man I didn't know. He was hiding his wallet and his ID. I found things shredded in the garbage and he would come up with reasons. I bought them all. He yelled at me, he back handed me. I left for the night but I came back thinking I had made him do it. I gained weight; he encouraged me to do Jenny Craig. I lost for a while but when I hit a plateau he told me the scales where wrong there that I was gaining again. Couple months later I found out I was pregnant. We were elated. But then girls started calling the house. He would make up stories that I believed. He had just driven her home. Or she just wanted him but he didn't like her. I believed him after all he was gorgeous. I was young and stupid. There were red flags all over the place. I had the baby; things got better for awhile. I lost 40 lbs nursing. Then the verbal abuse started again. And went on for almost a year before it blew up. He beat me in April of that year for the first time. I was scared. He had hit me in the head with a phone because I tried to call the police. When people at work said something about my eye (I couldn't cover it up with make up), I said I had a fight with a phone and the phone won. He swore he would never do it again. I knew he was having an affair but what could I do? He had isolated me. My car was at some "friend's" house, whom I didn't know and supposedly didn't work. He refused to tell me where. Nothing happened physically for another 5 months but he made me quit my job and work closer to home. He wouldn't let me use his car unless he was home and didn't let me have the use of the phone. I bought my own. He was upset about that and said it was his phone line. One night in September it came to a head again and he backhanded me and held a knife to me. This time he bruised my cheek. I decided I had to leave. I was stupid again and told him I would be doing this in a few months when I had more money. That was the biggest mistake I ever made. That was Sunday by Thursday he started another fight and this time he almost killed me. He told me I better leave. I was getting my stuff together enduring his verbal abuse and I told him I was taking my daughter. He told me I wouldn't leave there alive with her. There was just something in his eyes. I knew he was telling the truth. I knew I had to get her out of there. He grabbed her by the arm and threw her in her room. He sat and watched me get my stuff. Watching her door. Knowing I would go get her eventually. I was waiting for the right time. I made my move and got body slammed to the ground and he pulled my hair, beating my head into the carpet. I remember screaming for my life. Thinking I have to stay awake. My daughter's life depends on me not being knocked out. Somehow I managed to get up and run to the door and grab my stuff. Thinking I would come back for her. He grabbed me, holding me against the door. I screamed into the crack. Hoping someone would hear me. Thinking this is it. I am going to die here. He took my glasses away and my keys off my wrist. And shoved me through the door. And just to finish off the humiliation kicked me in the butt telling me to never come back. Luckily, my downstairs neighbors heard everything. They asked me to come in, told me they had already called the cops. He was arrested. I went to a shelter that night.



Many things have happened since then. But that night, that relationship changed my life. I was depressed for many years. I battled my weight going to Weight Watchers and doing Slim-Fast. It all seemed to work for awhile but I never lost that much weight. I wasn't committed to it. I was in pain when I exercised because of the amount of weight that I was carrying. So, mainly I complained a lot and tried to eat healthy off and on.
Finally,  2010 came I had been remarried to a man now for the length of time I had been married to my first husband and I had a three year old along with my daughter. My life was getting better. I hadn't been depressed in awhile. I decided to make that change that every diet plan had talked about. I started with Jillian Micheals online program. It worked. I wasn't really good at navigating her site but I was losing weight and feeling better. I started following her on twitter and found Chalene Johnson, the creator of Turbo Jam. I started getting these inspirational twitters throughout my day. This spured me on. Then a Beachbody fitness coach started talking to me. She wanted to be my coach. I had never bought any Beachbody products but that didn't matter. I didn't have any money. She didn't care. She just wanted to support me in my weight loss journey. Through her guidance. I got stronger emotionally. Now I am a Beachbody coach and am helping others.
Today I started Turbo Jam. What a workout! I know in the next year I will lose the rest of my weight. Never again will I let it have a hold on me. Thank you Beachbody for my wonderful coach. I pray that I can pay it forward and help people the way she has helped me.